Look, I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about. I am faking and bullshitting and trying to sound like I'm this intellectual creature analyzing humanity but I'm really 100% feelings and completely terrified of everything. I don't really do my research on anything at all and I don't ever seem to find any answers I can trust. In theory I am an automath; almost everything I know in life I learned myself, and all that means is that I can't trust anything I know about anything. It's starting to get to me, it's starting to feel like living in a whiteout. I need to read more books. I have absolutely no understanding of basic human interaction. here's a picture of me one night after we went out, and I felt particularly lost.
I have decided that I 100% love the take aways shows, because they great and loving and are made by people who feel they are special and happy and in the light, and sometimes it makes me angry that I feel like I am not special and can't be happy and don't deserve the light. I suspect I am awesome and deserve the light, I just need to remind myself sometimes.
Truth does't make a noise.
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