In and out of moods this week, went home to dinner with my folks, now consumed by thoughts of doubt regarding whether or not they raised me or I raised myself. The more I think about it all the things I like about myself I developed on my own, at the library, in the wasteland of teenage isolation. I am pressed to recall a particular moment of guidance or wisdom that brings out the warm fuzzies, and sometimes am even angry at some of the basic skill they failed to impart on me. However, I suppose that any self discovery I have done was done with the tools and the freedom they gave me, and while they did ignore certain aspects of my development they did drive me all over hells half acre to rehearsals, singing lessons, auditions, martial arts and gymnastics lessons and comic shops, allowing me to do and try things that a lot of kids never do. My Dad volunteered to co-coach the soccer team and t ball team when I was itty bitty, even though I sucked at both and have always thrown like a girl. So it's not like they didn't try. It's really bizarre that your parents are people. I'm still really not used to the idea and have no way to relate to them as anything but a concept.
One of the things I love the most about my Dad is they way he has made me love my Grandad J.B( his) without ever meeting him. Grandad J.B died when I was 1 (and I suppose technically we met but I was a baby), but whenever my Dad would tell me one of his stories or corny Jokes he would talk about Grandad in such reverent and loving tones that I totally get warm fuzzies now thinking about him and what it would have been like if he had been around. Ultimately I think I'll probably speak the same way about my parents, no matter how frustarated I can be with them nowadays.
What does this video have to do with anything?
Nothing at all, and the sound is played out even if the song is alright, and it doesn't work if you can't see that they all look like John Hodgemans, but with all those things combined it's pretty alright.
My parents read to me a TON when I was a baby. It definitely worked.
Silent Sigh
